I have been reading history text books for years. And i have seen alot of war in those books. Assassinations, bombings, massacres... God couldve stopped them all. Did he? No. Here i stand, accused of insanity by my own blood for making a logical observation of a christian diety. I hear alot of people saying god can do anything. But i respond with a question, will he do it? Its not a matter of ability within a person, its how the ability is used by the person, provided he is motivated. Am i not allowed to have a logical question? God is all powerful. And yet we humans go through needless suffering. He takes awaybour accomplishments and our lived ones without remourse. I lost my aunt, uncle and baby cousin to a train. God could have stopped it and saved us the trouble and pain and tears. My baby cousin was only teo! Everyone cried at their funeral. The prayer guy said that god has taken them to a better place... Bullshit. The best place anywhere is right with the people you love and who love you. Ii hate crying. I hate it. But...i cant do anything..but cry. Cry for my own pain, cry for others, cry over the corpses lining up in the hundreds of thousands each day around the world. Here on earth is a continuous series of tragedies caused by out shifting earth, or our man made mistakes. War is our biggest man made mistake, and we keep making it. Is it wrong to expect god will make it better just by thinking it..? Well?! If it is...ill renounce my belief in him. And become agnostic. I dont want to hurt anymore..and yet god himself pulls the strings of all our lives. We are his personal whacky puppet show. We burn, are ripped to pieces, pelted with bullets, eaten. And as aa result, we are reaching the dusk of the age of reason, and sinking back to our primordial roots as savage barbaric simpletons . God created man in his own image. Well..look at us. We are freaks. Diseased. Famished. Parched. Mutated. We are born with such flaws. If god created us in his own image, his ambiguous appearence would be far more hideous than us. As i said before, agent smith from the matrix posed a very valid point. We are a cancer to earth. We mutilate ourselves and each other. For what? Revenge? Greed? The satisfaction of killing another human? We are an unruly species worse than the american cockroach. Im just wondering when god himself will pull out a can of raid on us. Think of me how you will...but any negative and slanderous remarks will not be tolerated. I know my rights. I have a right to question these matters.